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was dying to write last nite but can't seem to open the page so decided to sleep.

celebrated ee-ling's bday at the pancake hse. turned out the offer wasn't as expected. the last time we went we ordered any pancake meal and received one meal free of our choice. this time i think they were a bit smart. or perhaps the waitress beforehand was new and didn't know what the offer was abt. so i was disappointed and frustrated to end up paying my own meal full price plus ee-ling's meal as well (a split among us). $11.90. $10.50 for my meal which was not very filling but satisfying. but the great time we had pays off. couldn't invite jules cos we only saw her after we reached home that nite. took pictures, they're in fotopages.

left at 7 and reached home around 11pm. had a nice talk in the kitchen wif izmia n jules. also had some 7up thanks to sher. izmia was in a bad mood the whole time and was in one of her mood swings. so we talked abt it for a while and then continued on the aborigins of australia. i absolutely love our long nite chats.

today was as boring as it could be. and hot too. very hot. it said high of 30 degrees on the net but when i looked at it again, it said "currently 33 degrees" haha some forecast they have :)

jules got a package tday. it seemed like i'm the only one whom hasn't received anything ever since i got here. not even a letter. oh except from the bank. felt really low. i know it's irrational but u see.. shermayne received loads of letters, cards and postcards.. and jules received i duno her 3rd package? in a span of a month. and me? nothing. but when i think more abt it, i realized. shermayne was the only person in her family to go overseas. her family must be all excited and proud of her etc etc. she must be the talk of the family gatherings and be missed of a lot. the apple of her family. and jules, well it's her first time being away too. and being the only student being picked to go as a student exchange in her uni, he family must be proud of her too. as for me.. well.. i duno. my family can never be proud of me. after all i've done and the hurt i caused. what is there abt me to be proud of anyway. maybe i should be feeling low abt it. i deserve it.

whatever.

had a hsemate meeting tonite. came down with still the low feeling in my heart. had dinner while the meeting goes on. but after we've dismissed, izmia n jules came in the kitchen and we had our usual nite talk again. and she gave me some sprite. as i gulped it down n it settled in, i felt good suddenly. i wonder if it was the drink. but we didn't stay long coz jules had to go finish up her assignment which is due nxt monday and izmia n sher has to go to the uni and print out the duty roster. and as for me, i'm writing this while watching lake placid. old movie but it's good to kill time.

i'm bored.

didn't get to chat w my boo tday. maybe that made worsen the feeling. abg joe's wedding is tomorrow. adik's online. later.

downloaded skype but can't create an account. apparently it said error in server. sigh. can't wait to go grocery shopping tomorrow. for milk n bread. i've made myself an allowance per month so HOPEFULLY i don't go over budget etc etc. been making some calculations and such so i've 72 dollars left until the end of the month. hopefully i don't need to spend on anymore nonsense like a "pancake meal" for 30 ringgit !!